Rare Mama Life… Discharge Day!
Today is discharge day and I’m terrified! It’s kind of like having a newborn as a first time parent because you don’t really feel qualified to be sent home with the kiddo without the nurses coming along.
Don‘t get me wrong, I am super excited for us to be reunited again as a family. But I’m terrified of hurting her, moving her the wrong way, not staying ahead of her pain, making her afraid of me touching her or being moved, and just generally doing things wrong. Cleaning her wrong, putting her brace on wrong, rolling her on her side wrong, changing her diaper wrong, putting her ear drops in wrong. Just everything.
Hailee’s brace has a section that goes around her hips as well as stationary sections for each leg that are connected by metal. So her lower half is sort of stuck in place though she can wiggle her feet around. But it means being confined to her bed or to a wheelchair for the next 4.5 weeks. It’s going to be hard for my busy little girl but hopefully we can keep her spirits up and her totally bored self entertained. Either way, I AM NOT READY.
Today Jason came to the hospital in the morning to tag me out so he could learn all the things from the PT and Orthotics folks too. So while he’s doing that I am at home with Jonah discreetly freaking out and trying to prepare things. I tried to make her bedroom comfortable, which involves a lot of pillows in order to prop her up at the best angles and keep her feet floating to help with swelling. I wanted to have a welcome home sign or something fun but I am so spent. Sorry, baby.